what we said when basia fell in love

Jackie 10:15 AM

basia, do you have the fever?

 the love fever.

Basia 10:16 AM

no, i dont think its a fever

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it just is

no fever

just is

its the strangest thing

this is

the being.

the be

to be

and just is

not a fever

just being

Jackie  10:18 AM

being what?

Basia  10:20 AM

just being

there's not fever in just being

jsut being is breathing

lots of just breathing

through it all

i thought it would be a fever

but its not

its just breathing

life fully in

taking it all in, one step at a time

and just sitting, and being

Jackie  10:22 AM

are you happy?

Basia  10:23 AM

oh, for sure

but its so much greater than that

so much better

so much more jesus

Jackie  10:24 AM

better.

Basia  10:24 AM

prayer works

god is faithful

and kind

and so kind

on loving others + desiring our joy in christ

Spiritual pride is the main door by which the devil comes into the hearts of those who are zealous for the advancement of Christianity.  It is the chief inlet of smoke from the bottomless pit, to darken the mind and mislead the judgment.  It is the main source of all the mischief the devil introduces, to clog and hinder a work of God. Spiritual pride tends to speak of other persons’ sins with bitterness or with laughter and levity and an air of contempt.  

But pure Christian humility rather tends either to be silent about these problems or to speak of them with grief and pity. Spiritual pride is very apt to suspect others, but a humble Christian is most guarded about himself. He is as suspicious of nothing in the world as he is of his own heart. The proud person is apt to find fault with other believers, that they are low in grace, and to be much in observing how cold and dead they are and to be quick to note their deficiencies. But the humble Christian has so much to do at home and sees so much evil in his own heart and is so concerned about it that he is not apt to be very busy with other hearts. He is apt to esteem others better than himself.

—Jonathan Edwards, Thoughts on the Revival

of sarah edwards and religious affections

“They say there is a young lady in New Haven who is beloved of that almighty Being, who made and rules the world, and that there are certain seasons in which this great Being, in some way or other invisible, comes to her and fills her mind with exceeding sweet delight, and that she hardly cares for anything, except to meditate on him — that she expects after a while to be received up where he is, to be raised up out of the world and caught up into heaven; being assured that he loves her too well to let her remain at a distance from him always. There she is to dwell with him, and to be ravished with his love and delight forever. Therefore, if you present all the world before her, with the richest of its treasures, she disregards it and cares not for it, and is unmindful of any pain or affliction. She has a strange sweetness in her mind, and singular purity in her affections; is most just and conscientious in all her actions; and you could not persuade her to do anything wrong or sinful, if you would give her all the world, lest she should offend this great Being. She is of a wonderful sweetness, calmness and universal benevolence of mind; especially after those seasons in which this great God has manifested himself to her mind. She will sometimes go about from place to place, singing sweetly; and seems to be always of joy and pleasure; and no one knows for what. She loves to be alone, and to wander in the fields and on the mountains, and seems to have someone invisible always conversing with her.”
- Jonathan Edwards' on Sarah Edwards

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A dinosaur just walked into my room and wanted to sign on his AIM screen name
I said Heck No you tyrannosaurus Rex, you get your own freaking PC
Then he told me
this
really
sad story.
So I let him use it. 

indie was a brachiosaurus

today
i want to speed travel
on a brachiosaurus -
to an indie city's art district
and play chess
with a homeless man
who tells me of his fortune 500
business,
and how i should invest in stocks.

spontaneous decisions

this is the face my mother is going to give me when she see's my most recent addition 

[nose piercing]

biblical femininity + you

a friend sent me this email, i thought i would share.
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ive actually been thinking about our definitions and perceptions of femininity alot.
I went to an orphanage yesterday run by a woman, Tammy. Something about it seemed peculiar to have her leading and raising these kids by herself. I mean there were interns and other adults, but she basically served as dad and mom and pastor, visionary and the complete gusto behind the entire operation from the very beginning. She is in charge of their spiritual needs, their discipline. Shes basically a single mom for 46 kids, ranging in age from 20 to 2. I dunno. It was incredible to see the Lord at work here. At first I was just feeling out the place and getting a gist of what goes on, and i felt weird but i didn't know what it was. And then it hit me that she didnt fit a mold of "biblical femininity."  And I wondered if she would have been encouraged and supported by our christian reformed culture. I dunno. Still trying to process all of what i saw and experienced yesterday. I see your concerns very clearly: what about missional living, what about loving the poor. Is God just as pleased with 80 dollars on a haircut "serving your husband" or toward feeding and clothing children in uganda.

Well? Whats the deal here? Whats actually more biblically feminine? This butch, seminary graduate, single lady running an orphanage? Or a quiet housewife wearing Ralph Lauren who's sacrifice is nonreturnable modest clothing? Both?

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what do you think?

in a similar challenge, check out this francis chan message.